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If I could create the perfect person

their eyes; blue or green

their skin; pale, maybe with freckles

their hair; black or red or blond, thick and pin straight asian hair

their height; 5'6 - 6'2Photobucket

their bmi; 18.5 - 22.5measuring tape Pictures, Images and Photos

their shoe size; girls:4-6 guys: 8-11Heels Pictures, Images and Photos


OMFG Blink-182 is BACK!

Yes, the world is whole again!

It fills me with heart stoppingly amazingly mind blowing happiness!

"Blink-182 Summer 2009
Hi. We're blink-182. This past week there’ve been a lot of questions about the current status of the band, and we wanted you to hear it straight from us. To put it simply, We're back. We mean, really back. Picking up where we left off and then some. In the studio writing and recording a new album. Preparing to tour the world yet again. Friendships reformed. 17 years deep in our legacy.

Summer 2009.

Thanks and get ready...

Wow, I'm still like whoa this is really happening~

super junior

No one can understand the love for a band unless you've felt it
I can't explain it but Super Junior are amazing
they CAUSE happiness
I swear there magical


The love they have for each other is great and makes me feel happy
There love and dedication to there fans [E.L.F.]

when ever i see them sad
or happy
or mad

i feel it too

i would kill for them

42 hours

i made it 42 hours w/o eatting and then i made myself eat a banana
i didn't fail at my fast
this was only a test to see if i can
guess what
i can
i felt fine
and idk when my next one will be
but imma start planning a 3 day fast

oh and i made a little reminder on my wrist just to make sure

so over all the last 2 days weren't that bad

now if i could only fix what's going on between me and my boy friend
and i can be happy

fuck you know what i just remembered what i forgot to tell him

some stupid quotes I liked

Habit is either
the best of servants
or the worst of masters
control the habit
control the waist

Self-disciplined begins with the mastery of your thoughts.
If you don't control what you think, you can't control what you do.
Simply, self-discipline enables you to think first
before you do something you'll regret.

Such power there is in self-restraint.

i did not write this but it helps

I don't want to die; I don't want to live,
There is no way my body could ever forgive,
Everything that I do, the pain I go through,
All because I want to be beautiful like you.

I don't want to eat; I don't want to starve,
In my arm is where I begin to carve,
The mess I've made, the damage I've done,
All because I know I haven't won.

I don't want to retain, I don't want to purge,
Through this illness what will emerge,
How long will I live for, what will I encounter,
What will all this damage count for?

I want to get better; I want to stay this way,
I look in the mirror and day by day,
I'm disappearing yet my mind won't change,
For ever and always I'll be at this derange.

I want to be healthy; I want to be under weight,
I would love to be able to finish what's on my plate,
I want to be able to eat like a normal person,
But in my heart I know it'll only worsen.

I want to be me; I want to be free,
From this life I've lived uncontrollably,
I want to be alive; I want to be well,
But I know I'll never be released from this hell.

So the rules are simple

Tomorrow, I get up early buy some safe food
[ex; broth soup, single serving cereal boxes, basically stuff that wont go bad and are 100 or less cal.]
I'll keep it all in one dresser draw and hope on one finds it.
I'll buy some diet pills and if I can find it a working scale.

I know if I dive into this fast I'll lose weight like nothing . . . at first.
But it'll also shot my metab. and it's only 'water weight'.

Sounds great right?
Now all I need is to start working out again . . . wish I had access to a treadmill.

I deleted all my past journal entrys

I wanna start over, really.
as of 12:00am September 16, 2008 I am starting a new.
The Important Stuff
Weight: 115
Heighest Weight: 120
Lowest Weight: when i started high school i was 85
Current Weight: isn't current weight and weight the same question?
Goal Weight : 90
Fave food : tuna
Fave Drink : water it has to be
Fave Exercise : leg lift things
Thinspo : anorexic
Where do you slip up?home at night
When did it start?when i was in 6th
Why did it start?i was too depessed to eat
Does Anyone know?yes
Do you want help?yes and no
Diet pills?been thinking about it, soon
fave binge food:ice cream
Fave dieting food:tuna, lettus
How many cals do you consume a day?on average 500
What tips do you use to lose weight?consume less then you burn, wayyyyy less
What do you see when you look in the mirror?everything wrong with me
Are you in a relationship?yes
If so, Do they pressure you to be thin?no, but they are thinner so I feel the pressure anyway
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends?thin, but this is new york
Are you depressed?...
Do you self harm?yes
Ever tried to commit suicide?no
Ever been to a psychologist??yes
Fave song?Honor to Us All - Mulan

eunhae pic spam

do you know what we're going to do later?

we're going to have sex

this is so0o a 'we just had sex' picture

and this is so0o the morning after

total makeout hair>>>

I'm not a stalker?

"don't touch my man"-Donghae


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